The other days, one of my friends told me that he met our another common friend, whom I'd had some quarrel with long...time ago. Because of that, I started to think about why we'd had quarrel with each other, and why after such a long time we still treat each other as strangers. Actually, I couldn't quite remember why... and...I thought, the situation might be improved as long as we have the chance to meet each other. However, just right on the following day, I met her myself at a party. I don't know why, I didn't dare to talk to her, I didn't even say hello to her....(yeah, you can blame me for that....) Now, I really feel bad for that, I should act more friendly, and not...that stupid! I really have no idea what I was thinking.... maybe it's just because of the inferiority complex of me, I didn't dare to say hi to her. The next day, I wrote her a mail, to appolize for my bad manners. No matter what will happen later, I just hope I can act normally and appropriately.
I was thinking......if that's true that once you have a good-looking face, good dressing-style, or even just more money, and then you could have more friends? Do I really have no friends? Or...maybe I'm just too keen on those who have good-looking faces, or those who are more popular, to remember the friends who are always with me all the time??
Because of she and Renée (and also Gohome's words: girls are always easy to have a fight with each other and never let it go), drive me consider seriously about my relationship with all my friends. And...thanks for that, now I'm 100% sure, I'm a real girl. Hmm....I don't know why I just can't let it go, either.... I just can't. God..can't anybody turn me into a downright sort of person!?
Hope I can really follow the words: to change myself and to invest in my friendship! This is what I really need to do for now.
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