This is not about the movie, but about my own experiences with God lately...
Yeah, maybe it sounds crazy that I'm writing letters to God, but believe me, the crazier thing is that God does read them and He replies! Besides, He often responds to me very fast, sometimes even before I finished writing...
this is how it started...
I once heard a friend's prayer, which is so sincere and full of life, and that got me to think how come mine is usually quite dry.... you know, sometimes i might take the shortcut to just pray in tongues (don't got me wrong, it's good to pray in tongues and we should practice it), but my case is that a lot of times i might just begin with "Dear Father in Heaven," followed by a certain period of silence (and I thought i was praying quietly in my heart) and ended with "God, I believe you know everything that's on my heart. I give them all to you and I pray in Jesus' name. Amen." Right, He does know everything (according to what I just said), He can understand me even before I speak it out loud. But, you know what? He simply wants to hear us talking... Can you imagine the God, who created the whole universe waiting in front of you just to hear what's happened in your life today? and maybe it's something not even worth of mentioning, he's interested in it, because he just wants to listen to you. No wonder King David said, "what is man that you're mindful of him?"
Just right after I realised very seldom did i pour out my heart to God, I was wondering what I should do to change that... since I'm not good at speaking, but I like to put things into words, and we do have written prayers, why not? So, i started to write letters to God.
It is a bit difficult to start my first letter, for I don't know to whom I should address... but I decided to begin with the Father God, and then depends on what I'm going to say to see if it's for Jesus or Holy Spirit to read. Even though I guess they share the letter anyhow, still it's nice to write to them separately, because as we learned, they all have their own personality, eller hur? And through this process, I've got some new aspects about prayers and my relationship with God has changed quite a lot as well.
#1: Pray with expectations that God will answer this prayer!
Just like we'd usually write: "Look forward to hearing from you" I believe we expect so even if we don't write it. and when I wrote it i realised... "wow, I've never thought it this way... I though to pray is to speak out what you have on your mind and if it's answer, that means you pray according to His will; if not, then maybe there's some misunderstandings. But from this point of view i really found that "I should have such expectations that God doesn't only hear my prayers, He WILL reply to me! and it is with this new expectation, I view my prayers differently.
#2: We can bless God!
We usually say that "God, we bless you" or "Bless Your name!": But i usually don't get it, 'cause I thought He is the one who blesses and what can we bless Him with? But as I wrote the letter, I found that it's just like blessing friends with simple things like have a nice day or be in good mood. We can bless Him like: Wish Him a happy day/Hope that He doesn't get too busy or too tired/Bless Him that there will not be too many things to keep him troubled...etc. Blessing Him became something more reasonable to me and I like to bless Him, because I believe He likes that just as I like to be blessed.
#3: Prayer is not only about asking, but to have conversation with God.
Indeed, ask and you'll receive。 But you can simply tell God what has happened in your day and what you think about someone/something, and asking about what He thinks. I'd ask Him how His day has been or if He had a good day. God is not a prayer-answering machine. He thinks, He feels, He has emotions and expectations! He expects us to get to know Him better, He expects to have closer relationship with us, He wants you to know that He cares about every single thing in your life and most importantly, He hopes that you can feel His love towards you. When we do something wrong, He's actually more worried than being angry, because He doesn't want you to choose wrong ways which lead to perishing.
If what I said is not news to you, I'm happy to for you! but they were really like revelations to me and helped me a lot!! It's like getting to know God as I never knew Him before... and here I'd like to share a testimony with you...
One morning I wrote to Jesus: I need a conviction to know for sure that he loves me, because I don't want to be like a girlfriend not feeling secure about the relationship and asking "do you love me?" all the time
and just before I was about to leave, I remembered that I've left some stuff on the balcony and suddenly it occurred to me to take a look at the words on the marker (that marker is my farewell gift from a friend in Taiwan. I've been using it for almost one year but never paid attention to the words on it) and it's written as....
in addition, the friend actually gave me two of them, and I use the other one more often so you can barely see the words on it; but Jesus used the pinky heart with nicely written "Jesus Loves Me" to tell me how much He loves me....*flush*
I really couldn't help wearing a big smile on my face when I saw this, because I thought Jesus is just being too sweet... just as the smile was growing bigger when I was thinking about the whole thing, I saw my bike standing without other bikes blocking its handlebars. (this is the first time i know how easy it can be to move out the bike like that) Last but not the least... we had a pouring shower that afternoon here in Uppsala, but I biked home completely dry. Maybe you thought i waited until the rain stopped, but just right after I got home it started to rain again and it lasted for 1-2 hours at least. I know... He just doesn't want me to get a cold from being caught in the rain.
Conclusion: Jesus is a romantic and sweet lover.
Now I look forward to every word God has to say to me and to everything we're doing together.
Being a Christian is not just being religious or being fanatic about religion, it's a daily-life with God and Love Story full of surprises....❤
I wish you can all find your own way communicating with God =
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